#whatever... aaaand post

[scumblies]

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[askoverkill]

You are not WET. You are not KITTY. and you are not ANGRY!!!!!

transcript below:

(You are not WET.) (You are not KITTY.) (And you are not ANGRY!!!!!)

Siffrin! Wait up!

(…Hrm.)

(The group reforms and continues on.) (...Down the hallway.) (To where the Director must be waiting.)

(...) (...Last time, they didn't join you.) (And then you faced the Director alone.)

(You...) (Remember.) (Xem holding you.)

Huh?!

What's wrong?

There were sky pieces here.

...But there aren't any? What are you talking about?

I must be mistaken, sorry.

(Is this the correct hallway???) (You're not sure anymore!) (Where does this door lead then?)

(...)

(OH, BLIND IT ALL.)

[biblically-accurate-dca]

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[worthyprnce]

okay this is raw and rough, but I don't think I'll get myself to actually write something better, so here is an idea/outline of a scene I had in mind for this piece I made:

After Merlin leaves the lake, unable to keep looking at Arthur's body, he finds Gwaine fallen and unconscious on his way back to Camelot. He despairs and manages to make him come back to consciousness (he is not dead yet)

"Merlin…" Gwaine opens his eyes with effort and murmurs. He smiles, his heart at ease just by seeing Merlin's face again.

"Gwaine, stay with me, I can't lose you too" Merlin pleads, his eyes already turning a soft shade of golden.

"The king…"

"Arthur is gone…" Merlin's voice stumbles.

"So I failed him… I failed you... Camelot..."

Merlin is desperate as he takes off Gwaine's restraints, saying, "No, no, Gwaine, please… Don't take the blame for me."

With no strength left, Gwaine collapses onto Merlin, unable to support his weight or even raise his aching hands. How he wishes to caress Merlin's face, to swipe away the golden tears streaming down his cheeks.

"You did everything you could, Merlin..." is all he can manage to speak.

"I know… I know about—"

"Shhhh, that's not important now… please, Gwaine… Stay with me, please, just stay," Merlin says as he raises his body and places his glowing hands over Gwaine's chest in a desperate attempt to find the knight's heart. "I have to—I can do this..."

"Merlin, you can't..." Gwaine's breath-catching voice is hardly audible at this point.

“Don’t say that! Don’t— Don't you dare! You don’t get to give up! You can't!”

"Merlin..."

“No! No, not yet. I never told you everything. I never showed you what I am. I... if I’d just—”

“You’re everything I already knew" Gwaine cuts him softly, his voice is quiet, devastatingly gentle. "Even the parts you tried to hide. I loved all of it.”

“That's unfair! I’m losing you before I even had the chance to be honest... To tell you how much I lov- how much I love you...” Merlin shakes his head, voice cracking.

“Love isn’t fair sometimes... Yet, it's real."

Merlin's magic is worn out and shaky, and the glow in his hands falters. Unable to find Gwaine's strength to give his life back, he is exhausted and shaken. He tightens his clutch on Gwaine.

“Don’t go. Not yet" he begs, his tears falling down like a waterfall.

"I'm not worth your tears, Merlin" with his own tears streaming down his face, Gwaine tries to give him a little smirk but fails.

"Yes... Yes you are..." Merlin sobbs "I'm the one not worth of yours..."

"Yes you are... You've always been... It's always been you, Merlin... You..."

"I know..."

"It's alright, Merlin..." Gwaine smiles with difficulty.

"It's not alright! I can't lose you!"

"Maybe in another life I can find you again… and fall in love with you again… and make you happy…"

"You make me happy! Please, don't go, don't go…"

A moment of silence. Merlin's magic is failing, he is becoming weaker by the second, and Gwaine's body is slowly fading. Merlin has to lay down, carefully resting Gwaine down with him.

".. Hey, Merlin..." Gwaine whispers, his voice almost unrecognizable, quiet and emptying.

"Hi, Gwaine" he answers, lips trembling, tears falling, his eyes trying to scan Gwaine's face one last time, carving him into memory. Merlin lowers his head down so Gwaine can share his last words as a whisper in his ear:

"If I had the chance to go back in time... to love you once more... to be held like this by you... I'd go through it again..."

[tenderpreyy]

​I’m thinking again about Astarions sexuality and how I've seen some people (to be fair, just a few) talk about it. Mainly, people pointing out his flamboyant behavior, and that us as players are learning more about his past male lovers than female ones and basically all these things for some people pointing to him being gay or at least not interested in women in the same way he is in men. And him only being a romance option regardless of gender, because, well, all companions are and he is therefore just "playersexual", only showing interest in female player characters because he has to, because of the game mechanics.

I think what really rubs me the wrong way about this topic is that it echoes the kind of things bi/pan people (speaking as a bisexual woman myself) find themselves dealing with irl. Whether through some form of internalized biphobia or from the outside through other people's comments. Of course this is about a fictional character so it’s not like he has any feelings that could be hurt. But when i see people tallying up how often he mentions men vs. how often he mentions women it really reminds me of a way of thinking I sometimes fall into in regards to my own sexuality. This is definitely just an internalized response and not something I actually believe when I truly think about it for a second, but I know these patterns of thought very well. Of observing my own behavior. How often do I find which gender attractive? Am I attracted "enough" to women? Do I talk about men's attractiveness too often? Is it the other way around? Am I only saying this woman is attractive to prove something to myself? I literally have a girlfriend and my attitude towards mine or other's sexual orientation is generally a huge big "whatever, I don't care". And I still have a passing thought like that from time to time.

So seeing people talk about a fictional character in this way really sends home how many people (whether consciously or unconsciously) see attraction as some sort of equation, you can solve, where in the end you get a result of either gay or straight.

[solomiracle]

levi wanting to live his dream of getting hit by a truck and being reborn as an isekai protag so in the human world he runs in front of a truck but because he's a demon the truck gets fucking demolished and he walks away with the tiniest of scratches. he's suffering

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

i think climate change discourse often uncovers ways that people have trouble thinking about things on a certain scale… for example it feels counterintuitive to say that on the one hand, the US is iirc the second biggest emitter as a country and the biggest per capita (since number one is china whose population is famously quite large), and on the other, if we waved a magic wand tomorrow and the US went fully net zero, that would not really have a huge impact on the situation as a whole. but it’s true, because there are just that many more people living Not In The US. or like, it is both true that taylor swift traveling is probably responsible for more emissions in a year than you or i would be in several lifetimes, and that banning private jet use entirely in every single country in the world would be a drop in the bucket at best because it’s a relatively small subset of a relatively small fraction of global emissions. a lot of ostensibly justice-focused climate rhetoric has a very moralistic viewpoint on what we might call disproportionate emitters - which is why many people read a sentence like “taylor swift’s private jet use is mathematically negligible in the grand scheme of things” and assume it’s some kind of ethical or moral defense of taylor swift (or the US, or 1%, or whatever) - but i am starting to feel like “what we really need to do is hold the rich accountable” is just as much performative magical thinking as whatever alleged greenwashed bandaid someone is bringing it up to criticize, because saying it feels radical or serious but betrays a pretty fundamental misunderstanding of the actual scale of the problem.

[sttoru]

idk who needs to hear this but write what the fuck u want man 😭😭 drabbles & long fics about whatevaaaaa. jus do what YOU want, not because you feel obligated to

[toastermelody]

Qualia sisters designs GO (ft shitty mockups of their donut designs)

[juicezone]

(grits teeth) bones would tell u to be nice to ur self he would say its okay and not a problem and just a little thing and dont even worry sweetpea

[lambentumbra]

finished my main oc refs finally!! ill hopefully make some profile pages for them with actual info... soonish... but at least i have good full-color visuals for them all now!!

left to right:

olivandre (oli) [they/them]

cameron [they/any]

jules [he/him]

[lemons-pears]

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

like... y'all i do have old cookie run ocs from like... 2022... 2023... and i feel a lil bad going offline no context no nothin for ages. i'm too lazy to draw in my normal artsyle during exam season aaaah-

anyways.

[fungh0u1]

what if...? joan cat and marnie cat..?

[automatonknight]

i have no clue how to rip game files so you'll have to excuse recorded in-game audio blood splatter sounds and all but. erm. it makes a cute sound ok?

[atlasrayz]

Seatbelts on school busses are some bullshit. They didnt add them for safety bcuz if they did, then all busses would have them. No, they added them to further control students. I fucking hate them

[assumedcryptid]

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